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My flying nightmare…………

My beautiful Hawaii!

Hello.  My name is Pono and I want to be a skinnyaire.  I read this post on another blog that I really related to and thought I should blog my own experience with it. I just made the move back to my home you all know as Hawaii.  I am currently residing on the island of Oahu on the leeward side of the island.  I moved here approximately a month and a half ago.  I flew here on US Airways and can I just tell you do not at any cost fly US Airways!  I have flown them once before and my experiences have been nothing shy of horrific!  I am a big man.  I know this.  One of my biggest stresses is flying…..why?   If you are a decent sized person then you know that sitting in one of those seats is like being packed like a can of sardines one right up against the other with  space in between.  When I found my seat the first thing that crossed my mind was, “am I going

A wicked hoisin chicken salad that trumps most salads!

to be able to buckle myself or am I going to need to raise my hand and try to quietly and discreetly request a seat belt extension?  Well, my fears were confirmed.  I squeezed into my seat and realized how painful the flight was going to be.  My hips were being crushed and the discomfort and pain was already there just a few minutes after settling in.  I tried to buckle the belt, being a wishful thinker and all.  To my unsurprise it did not reach!  Nooooooooooooooooooooo!  My thoughts were like screams in my mind.  I couldn’t believe I had to ask for that extension!  Oh the shame……….and so my hand slowly crept its way up as the flight attendant passed.  Excuse me, miss, may I??????  Next thing I know she had found an extension for me and I quickly buckled my self in.  The flight was excruciating.  I felt like everyone had seen her hand the buckle to me and was thinking fat man thoughts about me!  That is my perception and my perception is my reality, whether true or not.  The seat felt like a vice grip.  Its mission was to make my legs go numb and halfway through the flight they started to get a little tingly.  All I did was pray and tried to fall asleep.  To my delight and relief we arrived at the Phoenix airport and I got off the plane and waited just over an hour before boarding again.  Same scenario.  Deja vu on the shame and embarrassment and the seat was loving on me as if Zeus himself were trying to squeeze the last breath out of me.  I sat next to a young couple and let me tell you my pet peeve is when small people, especially this young man next to me sits in his seat spread out slightly leaning to my side, his left arm all over my right-side arm of my chair, legs spread and going slightly into my space.  I waited patiently, bunched up and leaning left into the aisle until he went to the bathroom.  When he returned, I had relaxed my shoulder, put my arm on my armrest and let my legs stretch out in front of me being careful not to impose on his space.  I saw his face as he saw that I took ownership over my area and he seemed a little disjointed.  I could tell on his face.  He sat down and  tried to push my arm off and tried to stretch his leg into my area and tried to lean left into my shoulders.  He actually had the audacity to try to push my arm off the armrest.  I opened my eyes, having them closed, looked at him and saw him looking at me.  I said, “hi”.  He did not respond but just kept trying to push my arm off.  I then calmly reminded him that he was a small man imposing on my space and I didn’t appreciate it and he needed to stay in his chair space and all would be all right.  Amidst his grumblings and whatnot, I ignored him and fell asleep for while and then suddenly we landed.  I hate flying.  I also vowed as I stepped on Hawaiian ground again that if I had  to that I would do so a slim and fit man!  That has led me to this point so far.  I was actually starting this process in Texas but have since increased my workouts and intensity because of this situation.  If ever I am having trouble getting going all I have to do is remember how it felt to sit in a seat I could not fit in for hours on end.

Food for thought…………

Soy bean hummus!

I wanted to share in pictures some of the things I have been eating with you so you can get a feel for my dieting habits.  I love lettuce wraps with anything in them.  One of the lettuce wraps I love to eat I spread some soy bean hummuson it and layer a tomato, onion, cilantro, garlic and apple cider vinegar mix on top of that and crunch away.  It is absolutely delicious and filling.  I eat two, maybe three of those and I’m good for a few hours.  Sometimes I eat it on toast, but I prefer romaine lettuce leaves because it keeps me lighter and better and fewer carbs.  I try to eat 30 minutes from waking up in the morning

First you put the hummus on the romaine leaf....

and intaking 30 grams of protein.  I usually eat eggs or a lettuce turkey wrap or sometimes just some oatmeal and a couple of hard-boiled eggs.  I also love fresh fruit in the morning and throughout the day and nuts for snacks.  A handful of almonds coupled with raisins or berries or some form of fruit is my favorite.  I love makingmy own yogurt but with my kids and wife not here yet, it is just too much yogurt to make in a crock pot.  The quantity is massive….literally one whole gallon of milk.  If I can’t find anything for a meal, and I usually like smaller  meals throughout the day, I’ll grab one or two pieces of whole wheat bread, toast them and eat them with a

Then add your tomato sal\ad and voila!

tablespoon of peanut butter.  Love it!

Sometimes I eat it on toast!

Where I work out……….

This is where I swim......100 ft. from the house......

Here are a few pics of where I work out.  I use the beach a lot for my swimming which makes it harder due to the different currents that pull me in different directions while swimming.  When I swim in the pool it seems so easy and effortless because it’s just still water.  The ocean is like a circus and the pool is like a Japanese garden…..full of zen and serenity!

The path looking from the beach down to the house.........


Up hill barefoot in the snow…….

Hello.  My name is Pono and I want to be a skinnyaire.  Another glorious, and yet, not so glorious day has passed.  For those of you who are fighting for yourself on the battlefield of weight loss know and understand that there is so much to this fight than meets the eye.  There are so many feelings, inhibitions………thoughts of worthlessness that haunt the mind and cripple the body so as to lose all motivation or hope of ever losing that weight.  The inner battle we rage on ourselves will be the greatest conflict we will face in our life.  Oh, you think that there are bigger conflicts we face?  Go ahead, name one?  What it boils down to is our attitude.  Our stick-to-itiveness and resilience….our very essence — character, if I may will shine through.  Why say I?  When the dust has cleared we find ourselves holding that football on the 50 yard line and looking down the field to the end zone, our final goal and destination for the moment.  The one thing that will bring us down is ourself.  We can get tackled and pulled down….but really….what could we have done to do it better?  This is where the greats rise to the occasion.  When all seems lost and they know they have everything to gain and everything to lose, they use that as fuel to drive themselves to the brink of no return, making the impossible possible, turning dreams into reality.  When the bulls were down one with two seconds  Michael Jordan made sure that basketball dropped through the rim before the buzzer sounded.  There was no could’ve or would’ve or should’ve.  Now granted, there will be times when we do all we can and we may not win the game that night.  However, the fact that we are not afraid to make that shot time and time again only strengthens our resolve to win that next one.  It makes us resilient to negative thought and helps us champion our own end results.  Then, we are winners all the time and will be like Jordan and Gretzky…….remembered always for making that last second shot…..conditioning ourselves to always win.  And so the psychological warfare continues in each of us.  In me, daily.  I think about working out when I’m asleep, when I wake up, when I’m eating….and hopefully what I’m eating is healthy enough.  So much to take in. 

Photo shoot and measurements……………..

Since I posted everything on Saturday morning, I will be posting more pics and measurements on Saturday morning which is tomorrow morning.  Well, right now it is 10:00 am Saturday morning.  I haven’t had much sleep due to wrapping and all sorts of wonderful things.  So, this is my blog from a day and a half ago.  Give me time today and I will post more pics and measurements.  Well, it is the end of Saturday, today and I still have no photos.  The camera was full and so we had to delete some pics and now it seems the batteries are dead and need to recharge which takes all day so, sorry for that.  We will have to wait until tomorrow, but most likely Monday since I usually don’t blog on Sunday.  I go to church and relax and spend quality time with the family so most likely your pics and measurements will come on Monday.  Once again, sorry, but alas I can do no more but recharge and blog Monday. 

Weight loss or lifestyle changes………

Losing weight is such an exciting and horrifying and confusing thing.  It is the one battle we wage daily as human beings.  Even our own perception of things are warped due to our upbringing, environment, culture and so on.  One man might say he is overweight where another might say that same man has a physique he wishes to have.  Be careful not to fall into these categories of culture and upbringing and environment.  Many times they misconstrue your ideal self and you see yourself as fat and you are not or see yourself as fit and you are not.  Your whole perception of these words and ideas must change for you to see the real you and what healthy truly is.  Even using these words as fat and overweight and heavy are not good for a person to identify with.  We need to used words such as healthy, fit, active, striving towards a healthier lifestyle and not trying to lose weight.  It is not the weight that is the problem but the lifestyle that causes it.  The weight is the effect of choices made for our lifestyle we live. And that lifestyle, many times, will depict and tell our unseen story of upbringing and environment……even who we hang with and what we say to ourselves.  We, as humans, wear our hidden secrets and untold stories on our faces, our bodies, in our eyes, on our clothes, in the habits we do each day.  We outwardly express them unintentionally yet do them as a result of our thoughts.  I am desperately finding that strength within me to see the results of my actions and thoughts and actually feel proud of myself for controlling what once controlled me.