…..so freakin' bad!!!

Up hill barefoot in the snow…….

Hello.  My name is Pono and I want to be a skinnyaire.  Another glorious, and yet, not so glorious day has passed.  For those of you who are fighting for yourself on the battlefield of weight loss know and understand that there is so much to this fight than meets the eye.  There are so many feelings, inhibitions………thoughts of worthlessness that haunt the mind and cripple the body so as to lose all motivation or hope of ever losing that weight.  The inner battle we rage on ourselves will be the greatest conflict we will face in our life.  Oh, you think that there are bigger conflicts we face?  Go ahead, name one?  What it boils down to is our attitude.  Our stick-to-itiveness and resilience….our very essence — character, if I may will shine through.  Why say I?  When the dust has cleared we find ourselves holding that football on the 50 yard line and looking down the field to the end zone, our final goal and destination for the moment.  The one thing that will bring us down is ourself.  We can get tackled and pulled down….but really….what could we have done to do it better?  This is where the greats rise to the occasion.  When all seems lost and they know they have everything to gain and everything to lose, they use that as fuel to drive themselves to the brink of no return, making the impossible possible, turning dreams into reality.  When the bulls were down one with two seconds  Michael Jordan made sure that basketball dropped through the rim before the buzzer sounded.  There was no could’ve or would’ve or should’ve.  Now granted, there will be times when we do all we can and we may not win the game that night.  However, the fact that we are not afraid to make that shot time and time again only strengthens our resolve to win that next one.  It makes us resilient to negative thought and helps us champion our own end results.  Then, we are winners all the time and will be like Jordan and Gretzky…….remembered always for making that last second shot…..conditioning ourselves to always win.  And so the psychological warfare continues in each of us.  In me, daily.  I think about working out when I’m asleep, when I wake up, when I’m eating….and hopefully what I’m eating is healthy enough.  So much to take in. 

Photo shoot and measurements……………..

Since I posted everything on Saturday morning, I will be posting more pics and measurements on Saturday morning which is tomorrow morning.  Well, right now it is 10:00 am Saturday morning.  I haven’t had much sleep due to wrapping and all sorts of wonderful things.  So, this is my blog from a day and a half ago.  Give me time today and I will post more pics and measurements.  Well, it is the end of Saturday, today and I still have no photos.  The camera was full and so we had to delete some pics and now it seems the batteries are dead and need to recharge which takes all day so, sorry for that.  We will have to wait until tomorrow, but most likely Monday since I usually don’t blog on Sunday.  I go to church and relax and spend quality time with the family so most likely your pics and measurements will come on Monday.  Once again, sorry, but alas I can do no more but recharge and blog Monday. 

Weight loss or lifestyle changes………

Losing weight is such an exciting and horrifying and confusing thing.  It is the one battle we wage daily as human beings.  Even our own perception of things are warped due to our upbringing, environment, culture and so on.  One man might say he is overweight where another might say that same man has a physique he wishes to have.  Be careful not to fall into these categories of culture and upbringing and environment.  Many times they misconstrue your ideal self and you see yourself as fat and you are not or see yourself as fit and you are not.  Your whole perception of these words and ideas must change for you to see the real you and what healthy truly is.  Even using these words as fat and overweight and heavy are not good for a person to identify with.  We need to used words such as healthy, fit, active, striving towards a healthier lifestyle and not trying to lose weight.  It is not the weight that is the problem but the lifestyle that causes it.  The weight is the effect of choices made for our lifestyle we live. And that lifestyle, many times, will depict and tell our unseen story of upbringing and environment……even who we hang with and what we say to ourselves.  We, as humans, wear our hidden secrets and untold stories on our faces, our bodies, in our eyes, on our clothes, in the habits we do each day.  We outwardly express them unintentionally yet do them as a result of our thoughts.  I am desperately finding that strength within me to see the results of my actions and thoughts and actually feel proud of myself for controlling what once controlled me.

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One response

  1. kailee naihe

    you can do it, brother. i love you

    December 11, 2011 at 7:38 am

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