…..so freakin' bad!!!

Hello.   My name is Pono and I want to be a skinnyaire.  A lot has transpired these last couple of days.  I was nominated by Jerry Keusch and “youasamachine” blogger for “The Versatile Blogger” award of which I had no idea existed until now.  These two people who nominated me have incredible blogs of great depth and information.  Both of which I read and sometimes comment on and both of which I take great informative tips or counsel on the things I am working on in my life and apply them.  Link up and give them a look-see!  I also decided to hold off on blogging until today to let people mosey on through and see the list of nominees……so, as you find yourself perusing the vast lands of blogdome and come across the list of nominees, please take some time and take a gander at them.  You will not be disappointed. 

The truth will set you free……..

How many times have we heard this saying?  Let me tell you something.  Knowing I am fat does not set me free.  I feel imprisoned within a body that is not mine.  I feel like the walls are closed tightly around me and I know they are because physical activity hurts.  Breathing hard hurts.  Getting up and doing it again hurts like a cantankerous sore that’s found its way onto the edge of your upper lip growing bigger and redder and rawer with each breath you take until you want to die.  You

Walking the Walk!

don’t want to go anywhere because you don’t want people staring at it and wondering how filthy or unclean you are or where you have been or what you have contracted.  And that is the world of the un-lithe.  Yesterday was a beast day for me.  I did not really watch what I ate but didn’t overdo it at the same time.  I wanted, desperately, to workout but found it more fulfilling and rebellious not to.  I had 100% NO desire, yesterday, to do anything that remotely resembled any form of physical activity and had this cloud of frustration all around me.  I decided without first calming down and looking at it rationally that I would not work out at all and yesindeedy!  I did not.  Those feelings turned into determination this morning and pushed me out the door to do my walk.  The whole fam came for the event and the temp was in the 70s.. Couldn’t have asked for a better morning.  I just got back from shopping for a couple of hours and my right knee is a little stiff so as I sit here and recount my day to you I am icing my right knee-joint.   I may know that I need to keep in shape and lose a lot of weight, but the truth is this.  The truth is obesity sucks.  Getting in shape sucks, and dieting sucks.  This afternoon I realized I am not as committed as I should be….whether it be my food intake or my exercising.  I am committed but not deeply.  The kind of committment that makes a man get on one knee, look up at the woman he loves and ask her to marry her for the rest of his life.  I’m talking COMMIT!  So, I committed today, but this time it was deep…….deep like, well, deep.  I went for my cardio walk this morning.  Now, when I finish this blog I’m going for another cardio walk but this time will jog as much of it as possible.  Tomorrow, I do it again.  Nothing is going to stop me.  I actually have a great capacity to drop a lot of weight if I really focus my efforts and are consistent….keyword…..consistent.  Consistent is my nemesis.  It has been for weight loss.  I want to apologize for no weigh-in as I have been really sick and not been able to do much these last 5-6 days.  So today I raise my glass and toast all of you who are in my shoes.  We do this together.  We do this, not for glory or fame or for the verbal praises of man; we do this because we know and realize our true potential.  When all is stripped away from us and we are left naked, hungry, and vulnerable, we have two choices.  Choice number one, allow 0ur circumstance to let us know we are naked, hungry and vulnerable or two, know we are at the bottom of the pool and only need to push off the bottom to glide to the top.  I choose to push off and my push-off day starts today!  I set a goal for a 15-20lb. weightloss this week.  Goodbye Mr. Belly…………

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2 responses

  1. Jordan

    Keep on pushing bro! You are doing great!!

    October 9, 2011 at 1:04 am

  2. I want to start walking outside too when the snow goes away. I have cheked the link and didn’t know there was a proper walking technique. It’s interesting but I don’t know if I’ll be able to walk if I have to think about all of that loll

    January 22, 2012 at 4:53 am

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